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Thoughts on Writing

Last night I was reading quotes from Anthony Robbins. His statements are filled with action words and phrases creating motivation. Tony is a motivational speaker, after all. I was reading his quotes to gain some insight and inspiration to continue writing myself, for I have hit a mental road block. Three days ago I wrote a bit on what I believe the purpose relationships serve in our lives, but I became dismayed over my lack of vision, clarity and literary skill. I felt what I wrote lacked drive, momentum and focus. In comparison to Tony, my writing style is passive and lacking action. This bummed me out. The following day I made no money and this further bummed me out. Late at night I went to the bank to deposit a check and went to a store to restock on bananas, since I eat about five a day. While in the store I became hungry. I stood and looked around at my past, at all the food I once ate with bliss. I walked to the meat section and looked at the rows of red dyed meat packaged on foam trays all stacked on top of each other. The old me would have bought some meat and enjoyed himself that night, munching away. I walked through the wine isle and remembered how brandy, whiskey and wine always brightened my mood.

For the first time I felt very restricted and depressed by this diet. I didn’t know what to do with myself. Then I remembered smokey hot salsa and corn chips! Yo, that I dig. I bought some water, eight pounds of bananas, a pound of corn chips and two interesting special salsa mixes and I enjoyed the next few hours of my night.

Then, the frustration of finding my voice sunk in again and has rolled over into today. It has been cloudy the last three days and I haven’t seen the sun during that time. I wonder if the lack of sun makes me feel bummed. I am betting that it does. Even if that is the cause it does not make my situation any better. It shows how much I still am a product of my environment instead of being driven from within. My addition to caffeine is also evidence supporting this fact.

I must keep writing even though I cannot do it well. I have a deep feeling and understanding of reality. That seems to be what I have and am. So I must share it in the only three ways I can: speaking, writing, and living by example.

Looking Deeper into Meat pt.1 - Commentaries on Jo Stepaniak Answers

A few days ago I came across a vegan website run by author Jo Stepaniak. I am really impressed by how she answers a wide assortment of questions that deal with and are often raised in regards to veganism. However, her answer to one question I felt was overly harsh and judgmental and critical. Perhaps she was playing hardball to get her point across. For whatever reason it may be, I found inspiration in her attitude to write commentaries regarding it. Part 1 will focus on her first sentence in her answer.

source: www.vegsource.com/jo/qa/qapromeat.htm

Someone asked her if there are any positive reasons to eat meat. Simply put, this person wants to know what the arguments against vegetarianism are.

First sentence in Jo’s answer: “There are no moral, ethical, philosophical, or biological reasons for humans to eat other animals.”

Philosophical

She states there are no philosophical reasons to eat other animals. On the contrary, there are. What is philosophy but the rational investigation into the existence of things? When philosophy is applied to the divine and God, it is called theology. If God states that animals have populated our reality for our use, then that is a philosophical way of viewing a relationship between God, humans and animals. Eating animals then becomes a way of life. This is a philosophy of how to live life and thus, a philosophical reason to eat meat. I am aware this point of view can be countered, but whether it is right or wrong does not make it any less a philosophy. What is right or wrong belongs in a conversation regarding morality.

Another reason would be to participate in the food chain that humans are part of (whether or not humans are part of a food chain and whether or not humans are acting naturally while participating in it is a big, messy topic for debate that I would love to explore another time. The food chain outlook toward life could also be considered a biological motive.).

Another reason, although extreme, would be using a physical act — eating meat — to illustrate or partake in a metaphysical concept of consuming a life force and becoming empowered by it (it is irrelevant to counter by saying a life force does not resides in a dead animal, for a life force cannot be proven to exist in the first place.) This act of worship is symbolic, spiritual, and religious. But if it is a way of life and an outlook toward reality. Therefore, it is a philosophical way of life trying to make sense of the material and immaterial. This example is the same as making love (a physical act) to create or experience love (emotional or spiritual). What I am referring to here is a rite: performing divine or spiritual acts through physical conduct. To discount eating meat under these circumstances is secularism. Rejecting a way of thinking that deals with issues in life, such as death and souls, chi or life forces is to reject a perspective that is no more or less valid than yours.

Saying there is no philosophical reason for eating meat is silly and foolish. All this statement reveals is Jo Stepaniaks inability to perceive ways of thinking that fall outside her attitudes and morals. She is saying her way of thinking is right, other ways are wrong, and the door is closed for discussion. Bringing the topic of philosophy into a discussion of meat eating is apparently not a good idea.

Moral

Jo says there are no moral reasons to eat meat. This assertion only works when used against someone who appears to or claims to live a moral life, who has a firm grip of what is considered right and wrong. If someone has morals, then one can talk about morals. If someone is immoral, then a discussion of the sorts is pointless. If one cannot see, do not waste your breath describing colors. It will not be understood.

There are many people, mostly dead, whom I respect and revere that have talked about the conduct, intentions and actions of humans, known as moral principles, otherwise known as ethics, and applied them to eating meat. Like opinions and just like the concepts of good and evil, the weight of moral values appears to be based on the number of subscribers adhering to such ethics. But maybe not. Are there universal morals? I am not sure. The philosophy of morals have been discussed for a very, very long time and I am not well read in the subject. Regardless, with my basic understanding I see no conscientious, virtuous, or moral reason to eat meat.

Being ethical is to conform and adhere to a moral principle. Using “ethical” in her answer is redundant. Those two words are nearly synonyms. If there are no moral reasons to preform a certain action, then it follows that there will be no ethical reasons as well.

Biological

There may have been a biological reason to eat meat in the past to obtain b-12, maybe not, but it certainly is no longer required in our present era. B-12 is supplemented in all sorts of foods, such as bread, beverages, and bars.

Bottom Line

So, to reconstruct her answer, it should simply say there are no moral or current biological reasons to eat animals.

Compassion — the strongest reasoning for adopting a vegan lifestyle — lies in the realms of morality and is practiced physically and ardently through a vegan diet and lifestyle.

Why John McCain will be our next president

While it is amazing that we live in time where a woman, a minority, and a Mormon are running for president. It is equally amazing that neither of those three running will be elected because they are woman, African American and a Mormon. While we as a nation and as a people have come a long way on the road toward equality, majority are not yet ready for change leadership.

John McCain will be elected president solely because he is not a woman, black or non-mainstream Christian. He will be elected president because he is the only white, older male with experience and typical Christan beliefs (baptist) in the race. Regardless, this is still a landmark time in our countries presidential race and we have interesting times ahead of us regarding rights, equality and leadership.

In response I look back nine years at a Michael Moore directed music video “Sleep Now in the Fire” by Rage Against the Machine — not as nostalgia, but as inspiration in our current time. This song is not dated, but more relevant than ever.

Vegan Diet Update — day 10

It has been 10 days since I adopted a vegan diet and it has been around 40 days since I last ate meat. Although, meat intake was reduced substantially beginning November of last year. This vegan way of eating is going well. The only thing to complain about his lack of meat and dairy in my diet! The dietary changes that have occurred from adopting this diet are as follows: no meat, no dairy, increase of fruits, vegetables and tofu.The only physical change that has occurred so far is the loss of libido, which started perhaps in January. This can be attributed to either the lack of meat or an increase of soy protein in my diet. Diets high in meat and garlic have been shown to increase levels of testosterone while diets high in soy protein increase levels of estrogen. So maybe a vegan diet will create a girly man of me.
Actually, an interesting tip I learned regarding desert survival is to never trust a legume. They accumulate metals and produce toxins. This principle holds true with soybeans as well, since they too are a legume. Therefore I wish to eliminate soy products from my diet and instead further increase the amount of fruits and vegetables in my diet, which I am beginning to prefer anyway (for the first time in my life!). One step at a time, however.
Yesterday I accidentally ate a health bar that contains whey protein isolate as listed in the ingredients. Technically, that no longer qualified me as a vegan for that day. Oh well. So i ate another bar of the same. :)

Happy New Year!

Welcome to the Year of The Rat! I, for one, am glad it has arrived! Of all years, the last one, the Year of The Pig, is the worst year for my sign, and coincidently was the worst year of my previous ten years of my life. I cannot say it was the Year of The Pig itself that caused the difficulties, but it is interesting that the cumulation of personal poor planning and foresight climaxed into the year which diametrically opposes my sign.
It is also a coincidence that the Year of The Pig ended around my birthday in which I turned thirty years old. I have not spoken yet of the relevance of this event, but I plan to in the future. The next ten years of my life are dependent on this birthday which has led me into a positive new year of The Rat.

(to create coherence in the following bit, understand in short order that I died at the age of 21 and was reborn into a new way of life. It has happened once again; a death of Self has occurred at age 30. Now I am building a new way of life that is unique from the previous two. A future blog post will explain in larger detail.) After a quick death at age twenty-one, I created a new life and stepped into the future. I have lived that past life for nine years now. Almost half of which is chronicled at darkflavor.com. That life, without going into too much detail became exceedingly more and more difficult to live and cling to. This last year, all the way up to this day have been the most difficult of all, although the pressure is easing now that I am changing. Previously, it was as if I were pushing against a relentless tide of change. I stood fast to ideals and beliefs which became unbearable to maintain. As shown at darkflavor.com my discontentment, dissatisfaction and disillusionment with reality is obvious. That site is filled with pain and sorrow. It lacks intention. It is akin to reading a log of bad dreams.

I have died again.
I have been speaking to you now from a new life. I reflect this on this website. I reflect this new life with veganism. I reflect this with change.

What does “change” mean when applied to our lives? Why do we change? Why do we resistance changing? When is it time to change?

I know what this new year means for me. What does the Year of The Rat have in store for you?

Country Juicing

today i was thinking about how wonderful a juicer is to our health and well being. the ability to press the nutrients out of large sums of fruits and vegetables at one time into a small amount of concentrated liquid is amazing. no more eating massive sums of greens! before i juiced parsley, i would eat about a third to half of a bunch or bundle of it before i could take no more for the day. all the chewing tired my jaw. all the fiber made me full. now i press two bunches (two units as sold) of parsley into half a glass of juice, about four onces. works for me!

if i owned my own juicer, i would have to go to the store several times a week to stock up. but what if i owned a juicer back east in the country? there are so many plants that grow all over the place that can be juiced! out in east otto where taras mother lives, there are fields containing a huge variety of plants. fields of goldenrod who’s flowers might be similar to brocoli. burdock growing as a weed on the side of dirt roads! i cant tell you the number of burdocks i pulled out and let die as a child. burdock is incredibly healthy! natives once made tea from it’s root. it’s stalks are sold in the market i frequent. so are danilion leaves — another common “weed.”

everyday i could wander out of the house, pick a bushel of “weeds,” let them soak briefly to remove the bugs (i wouldn’t wanna juicethose!), and juice the plants with some bananas or carrots. now that i tell ya, would be a wonderful addition to a country lifestyle.

wild man steve brill

Wild man Steve Brill lives in New York and eats weeds!

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Smoothies!

When I speak of a smoothie, what comes to mind for most people is frozen fruit and/or yogurt, but that is not the kind of smoothie i enjoy! over the last year or two tara and i have been buying naked juice smoothies. there website is here. these are ready to drink packaged 100% fruit and vegetable smoothies that contain a pound of fruit in each bottle. little did I know that Wild Oats, now renamed to Whole Foods since the buy-out has a juice bar! I have walked by it inside the store so many times without realizing it. so one or two months ago Tara and I have been building our own smoothies totally customized! the smoothies I have been building and drinking are so much better I cannot get them out of my mind. I fantasize about them all day long. I have been drinking them several times a week now. here is a break down of the smoothie I build and drink:

  • 2 oz of juiced parsley (two bundles)
  • 2 oz of juiced carrot (one carrot)
  • a splash of juiced gingers (inch long piece, quoting trent reznor “.. to spice it up”)
  • 1 scoop of frozen blueberries
  • 2 frozen bananas
  • 3 frozen strawberries or pineapple
  • sometimes a splash of apple juice
  • [this equals over a pound of juice]

Yesterday the juice man — an employee who has been making our smoothies — juiced up two heads of broccoli for us. we both are aware of high nutritional value of raw broccoli while sharing the same excuse for not eating it — we do not like the taste of broccoli. and so he juiced it up, tops first, then stalks. both the heads and stalks produced the same amount of liquid. in total one head of broccoli comes out to one ounce of yellow green juice. next came tasting it. whoa! there is a lot of information in that dense liquid! it smells and tastes so rich and so alive it blew me away. it smelled like fresh green peas, like a spring garden and had the texture of milk and pea juice. do not underestimate this juice — it is very intense compared to purred fruits, like bananas and blueberries. i am very curious as to why broccoli juice is creamy. maybe it is because of protein? any case, good luck drinking that by itself. i highly suggest blending it with something else like carrots

i am ready for another smoothie tonight! i might juice up some cabbage or spinach for my next smoothie. :)

2nd Vegan Day Leads to a Vegan Paradox

The spirituality and philosophy of a vegan lifestyle are subjects i have avoided discussing due to shaky ground (logic problems, lack of commitment) and instead I talk about health benefits this lifestyle choice creates which is more concrete of a subject.

I wish to avoid crossing the fine line into fanaticism and polarity that many activists and environmentalists fall into, which ironically only serves to perpetuate the fear and suffering they are trying liberate non-humans from.

So Ii am a vegan. On my first day a new logic problem has emerged (there are several others, including philosophical and logical errors regarding morality, intelligence, environment and pain of which i have not addressed at this time). It is a problem of limitation. Becoming a vegan is intended to be a spiritually liberating lifestyle. Breaking away from the cycle pain perpetuated by an industry of murder and fear, the vegan rises above the snags of an unaware society with a greater awareness and sympathy for all living things. The paradox is that as a vegan I am being confined with limitations and restrictions (no animal products) in order to become liberated and free. Paradox alert!

This is going to be fun :)

My Vegan Diet Begins

tomorrow, February first, will mark the beginning of my vegan diet. the diet has been planned several weeks ago but has been delayed until my supply of yogurt has been eliminated, which the last of will be enjoyed and ingested tonight. the vegan diet is planned to last for the entire month of February. i have a strong attachment to milk products, so i am not sure i will want to continue the diet after that period of time. the only way to know how attached i really am to milk and milk products would be to go without them for a month, i suppose.

current vegetarian diet update for end of January:

1. removing msg as a spice for my daily tofu meal has resulted in me feeling full after eating the same amount of food. mental clarity is no longer compromised either. excellent! (please refer to this blog entry for history and details of this subject - monosodium glutamate.)
2. my last drink of alcohol was December 23 and i have not desired it since (this blog entry was written while drinking that last glass of wine). now over one month dry, this is the longest stretch in the past ten years in which i have not consumed an alcoholic beverage. i was once a daily drinker.
3. two servings of fish were consumed at the beginning of this month of January. i crave fatty, oily meats every few days. yesterday i purchased some fatty macadamia nuts to help curb my fat craving.
4. my sex drive has decreased. i presume this is somehow a side effect of vegetarianism. it is possible a lack of zinc, due to a lack of ingesting meat is to blame for my drop in libido.
5. although i generally feel in a better mood each day, the degree of mood change is so subtle that i am not sure if it has anything to do with my dietary changes, although, it is possible.

please refer to this blog entry as to why i am embarking on these changes in the first place.

my vegan diet will consist of some foods manufactured on equipment and at facilities that also manufacture products containing milk. therefore, some foods that are vegan cannot be guarantied to be such. i will not focus on such trivial details so to not detract from the overall goal and purpose of this exercise which is to abstain from consuming obvious animal products and byproducts. (it is possible that many vitamins and chemicals i will be consuming over the course of this vegan diet, such as caffeine and B complex may be artificially synthesized or produced by bacteria and yeast opposed to being derived or obtained only from plants. such vitamins obtained in this manor can not technically be considered vegan from my understanding of the definition of veganism, but i must remind myself to focus on the larger picture of this dietary challenge.)

the purpose of adopting this vegan diet to facilitate my development and growth of a higher state of consciousness along with increased mental and physical health through externalizing these internal goals by the use of a vegan diet. by improving my personal environment, along with the food which exists outside my body, i wish to similarly improve my reality within me. the ultimate goal is having the concept of a separation of an internal/external reality (in this case, body/food) dissolving into one total subjective reality, and thus, a higher state of awareness.

family death, & brief notes on spam & veganism.

my grandfather john passed away last night. he lived in west seneca, ny, alone for the last four years or so. his wife, my grandmother, has already passed away. he was fine three days ago; he was able to get up and move around. two days ago he developing a light cough, after which he was unable to get out of bed. then, hours later he died. he was already losing weight and growing weak, so a slight cold seems to be all that was needed to snuff out the light. his 98th birthday is in two weeks. that is quite a long time to live. when he was born, men who fought in the us civil war were still alive and around 85 years old. it’s pretty amazing to reflect back on the era he was born into and the times he lived through. throughout his life he enjoyed ales and cigars and would drink and smoke one or two each night until about five years ago. perhaps the secret to his long life was daily, light alcohol consumption.

he was a hard working individual. he was a notable buffalo-area boxer and once knocked a man out in the ring in merely eight seconds. apparently, the crowd was upset because they paid money to see a good fight, not one that is over in an instant. he was an engineer by trade and an avid sports player too. he played soccer when young and volleyball in his 80’s. my father respected him a great deal. he told me one of the hardest things to accept about his divorce from my mother was breaking off contact with my grandfather. john taught my father how to weld along with other carpentry and mechanical activities that are presently alien to me.

my grandfather taught me how to skate and play hockey some twenty years ago.

my older sister lara is close to him. she is saddened by this event, as am i.

in an unrelated topic, yesterday i received my first five comment spams. this will only pick up as this blog grows. a spam filter or captcha will soon be implemented to catch or restrict spam comments. this should not impact real comments, but as is the case with any filter false positives are inevitable. i will likely manually go through the comments to make sure real ones have not been blocked.

i am almost done with my milk yogurt and chocolate milk. once those are depleted in about three days, my vegan diet will begin.




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