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Facing our Demons

And so there is an evil thought in our mind, a selfish one, a thought if acted out would be detrimental. And so we shove that unacceptable thought aside, ashamed, into the darkness of our mind, into a closet with the rest of our proverbial skeletons. Then with a clear mind uninterrupted we carry on with our day. But soon a situation or person will unintentionally will call fourth that demon in our mind whom now present will attempt to wrestle control of our body to execute that which we fear, whatever it may happen to be for each demon is different. Will we win this match and once again bury this thought deep into an unused corner of our mind? Or will this thought of ours -conventionally labeled a demon - rise to the occasion from a weakened, drunken mind for instance and win? (Self-control is a flexing of ego.) Then what? We are embarrassed. We “live” and “regret” this “mistake.” But what if there is another solution? One in which we face our demons, come to understand them, come to reconcile with them? What if in doing so made them go away or turns them into building blocks to further our personal development and growth? I think that is worthwhile to look into.

We all have these metaphorical demons within us, eating us, causing us to live in fear of ourselves. These demons of thought are an aspect of ourselves, of our personalities which we have yet to face and resolve, answer and grow from. They are as much of a part of us as our hand is. And just as an unskilled, uncontrolled hand and arm can be accidentally used as a club, so to can an undisciplined mind cause trouble to ourselves and those near us. To face our negative thoughts is to rein them in with a lasso, tame them to work for us, eventually turning them into a steed to propel us to new heights of personal growth we thought not possible. No longer shall we run from wild horses for fear of being trampled or dragged into the forbidden wilderness. Today we ride them to greener pastures.

One demon I have is a fear of success and self-power. It’s a series of thoughts that have controlled me for a greater portion of my life. If they did not exist then I would have control over my life, I would have responsiblity, and I would be walking my path. Instead, these thoughts undermine me at every opportunity. The hold me down. It’s similar to or even might be called low self-esteem. For example, what would a person with low self-esteem say when someone else says “your music is excellent” assuming they are a musician of sorts? We both know the answer. My fear of success and self empowerment operates in a similar manor. When I am presented with an opportunity to grow and advance financially, socially, and personally in the real world I sabotage the situation to undermine my own advancement with the goal of staying put in the exact same spot - my comfort zone. These thoughts whisper to me saying “you’re not worthy,” “you’re not that good,” “it’s not for you,” “they are trying to trick you and deceive you.” As you can see thoughts such as these can really restrict and retard growth. There are many other limiting thoughts rooted in fear. Fear of thinking for oneself, otherwise fear of opinion. The fear of rejection causing one to pretend, be fake and please others. Fear of pleasure which can restrict one’s sexual freedom or the ability to simply to have fun. Fear of no control. There are many of these fears, these demons within us that unleashed and revealed cause and create typically socially or personally unacceptable situations. Moreover, they restrict our growth. And so we hide them in shame so they do not show up and reveal our ugly inside. And we smile.

To face our demons we do not need special equipment, a torch or a crossbow. All we need is courage. Only we know the depths of our minds and what lies beneath the thin veil of pleasantries, dress and formal greetings. Only we know how we truly feel inside. And if it’s not a feeling of abounding love and joy then we need to take a look and find what is blocking us from feeling that. What windows to our soul, if you will, are closed not letting in the sunlight? What is the cage we limit ourselves with made of? What is the root of our fear that is preventing us from feeling happy inside?

We can open the window. We can tame and control our mind. We can move forward and embrace the growth we so need. Everyone has a road block preventing us from going forward and getting something we really need in life and it is only our own mind that stops us. For me listening to my heart frees my mind. What will free you?

To identify our self-limiting beliefs we must ask ourselves what we truly want in life then list that which is preventing us from reaching it. For me it’s a feeling of worthlessness. For many others I imagine it will external sources, such as parents, family, a house, money, even race and gender. Many of us use biology as a source of a road block in life claiming that the color of ones skin or their sex prevents them from doing what their hearts desire. Some people place the blame on a spouse or children. Maybe you were told you had no value of some sort as a child. Now you are afraid to engage in whatever that may be as an adult. We believe the road block to be real. And thats the key. For it is only our own minds which make things like this real. For it is only these self-limiting beliefs which old us back.

For the practical minded, write on a piece of paper your goals and what is preventing you from reaching your goals. Then outline a plan to move around these blocks. Break that plan down into mini-goals that can be achieved monthly, weekly and daily. Stick to the plan and you will move forward closer to your hearts desire. Remember, everything in your life you created. This is a very empowering thought. It means you can change your life. Now stand up and embrace your dream. Now face life, your demons and your self-limiting beliefs with courage and achieve your dream.

Emotional Wind

We are not our thoughts. Discipline of the mind such as meditation controls and removes our noisy thoughts and fluid emotions so they happen abstractly, separately from the rest of our mind. When anger arises, let it pass. Though the storm blows leaves and whips rain hard against our flesh, we can lie safely instead in our home watching the storm as a separate event from our existence. Like all things made by man, this storm too shall pass. The anger or other emotions will dissolve into nothingness, the sky will clear and we will be left standing with resolve, unaffected.

Control the mind. Be not like a leaf carried haplessly with emotional wind. Be strong like a mountain whom the wind passes over. Learn from the wind. It is always speaking.

Virtual World & Subjective Reality

Matrix-like virtual worlds “a few years away”

from newscientist:
“Are supercomputers on the verge of creating Matrix-style simulated realities? Michael McGuigan at Brookhaven National Laboratory in Upton, New York, thinks so. He says that virtual worlds realistic enough to be mistaken for the real thing are just a few years away.”
Research available on the arXiv preprint server (pdf)

The increasing power of computer technology capable of rendering life-like virtual reality is coming tantalizingly close.

What is real?

Once immersive virtual worlds are as realistic as this world, boundaries between what is real and what is not will become significantly blurred. Let’s ask ourselves: how do we currently define what is real? By our senses? Do you define a book as real because you can ascertain it’s qualities using all five senses? Then are the words on this webpage less real than the words in a physical book? One can only obtain a web pages qualities via one sense - sight. So does that make this web page any less real than a book? If yes, then I recommend you read Plato’s Allegory of the Cave. If no, then what is the process you go through to determine this website is as real as a physical book when only sense of perception is used? To take this future, how do you know I, the writer am as real as a physical book when you cannot even see me? .. or China? or Christ? What exactly is real? And how exactly do we define what is real?

shadow play platos cave
photo by girlreporter

What this city is built on

The floor beneath us is far from solid. In material reality the floor is not what is appears to be. It consists of mostly empty space, sparsely filled with little atom balls which electrons whirl around at great speeds. Stepping on the floor is like stepping onto a swarm of ants. The solid quality of the surface is relayed from our feet and eyes to our brain via the electricity in the nervous system, of which minute electron particles make up.

A floor in a matrix-style virtual world is far from solid, even though it provides support for our virtual bodies. In reality, that virtual floor is not what is appears. It consists of mostly empty space, where the substance is substantiated by little electrons whirling about at great speeds. The solid quality of the virtual floor is relayed to our brain via electrons, likely emitted from a special helmet that sends electrical waves through our skull.

Is the virtual world an illusion?

A virtual world is made from the same electron particle that makes up this world, this webpage, and even you and I. We perceive and interact with the virtual world in the same manor as we perceive and interact with this world. If the virtual world is an illusion, then this world is also an illusion for both are made of the same substance and perceived via the same senses. The objects which particles build and the reality in which they inhabit are the illusions. The chair is not real. Instead, what is real is the function the chair provides, not the object itself. Similarly, the word “love” is not real. What matters is the connection the word implies.

Personally, I find this subjective viewpoint of reality where form is unreal yet function is real very empowering. This belief must be attached to the knowledge that I am real, as in my consciousness is real for this awareness raising potential of this viewpoint to be realized. This realization allows me to be the active agent in the creation of my own subjective reality. This allows me to decide what is good and bad, what I want in my life and what I don’t, along with the will power to fulfill these choices. I have met many people who had the courage to realize their potential and define their own personal reality for success and empowerment. Maybe this is this is the mental process they followed. Whether they know how the blooming of their mind and life occurred is largely irrelevant. The fact that they “made it” is what’s acknowledged. But I find the path, process and method equally as important.

May you realize your vision and power for action as well.

Clairification on Blog Entry: “Wide Awake: Veganism Open Eyes”

After posting the blog “Wide Awake: Veganism Open Eyes,” I received backlash regarding it’s content. The negative reaction seemed to be based on a misunderstanding that I suggested or proclaimed plants feel pain. This is ridiculous. I did not that state plants feel pain, or have any nervous system capable of feeling emotions. I was not anthropomorphizing plants. Instead, I expressed two concepts on how to view plants. The first being plants have a will to live. Secondly, compassion toward all living creatures is a necessity and requirement for a humanistic state of being.

To pervert both of these two key concepts into a statement that plants scream in pain and horror when eaten us categorically untrue, misleading and absurd. when I say a plant has a will to live I am not saying it is conscious. When I say plants should be treated cruelty-free, I do not mean plants feel pain.

Plants have a will to live. By will I mean it in the most primordial sense. Plants are interactive with their environment. They evolve, change, attack and defend themselves for the preservation of their life. Will goes hand in hand with life. Life, in all it’s grand splendor and varying forms, wills to live. Basically, what I am saying is simply this: since a plant is alive it needs respect. That is all. Life deserves respect regardless of form.

The second topic I discussed - cruelty towards plants - suggests a way of life, attitude or perception towards plants and all living life forms. Because a plant lacks a brain or nervous system does not justify a disrespectful or violent actions towards plants. Likewise, because plants do not experience emotions does not justify violent actions toward plants.

I understand that this concept may seem very strange. Therefore, a better angle for me to take would be to focus and stress on living a life of nonviolence.

One should live a life of nonviolence with an acceptance and respect towards all things living. That is all. Simply saying “thank you” to a salad is all the respect needed and is the point I am making, although in a much expanded form. :)

Notes for future blogs:

There are other factors and issues I would love to address at some point in the future. How to identify and remove Speciesism from our thoughts and actions. Is Jainism a rational philosophy? Another, are defenseless plants (lettuce) inherently sacrificial? What is the nature and purpose of a fruit? Assuming we had a way of perceiving the intent, if an organism such as a beef cow intentionally sacrifices itself for us, would that action make it morally justifiable to then kill and eat the beef cow?

Wide Awake: Veganism Open Eyes

What I have learned as a Vegan, And What You Can Too.

While I may have been able to learn all of the following by reading, doing so would have kept the ideas in the abstract. Experiencing the ideas, however, results in intimate understanding. Therefore, applying ideas to real life turns them into powerful and real vehicles of transformation.

Summery and Reflections

I have learned more about topics in which I previously new little or nothing about. I have learned about factory farming, free-range farming, sustainable farming, husbandry, protein nutrition, moralism, Jainism and green living.

All life is equal. Plants are equal to animals. All life desires to preserve it’s life; living is what life does.

If you wish to eat cruelty free, then I ask you eat only what Nature freely gives you. Ripping a carrot from the Earth is hardly a giving act. It is taking with force a life from Nature. Instead eat the fruits fallen from trees and the seeds scattered by the wind. Eat what Nature gives you freely, not what it protects with rocks, soils and emotions.

Killing any life, however small, is cruelty in the abstract.

Conceptually, cruelty need not have any physical manifestation for it to be as real as any other thought, like love. We tend to forget that thoughts, lingering in the abstract, are the foundations of reality. All acts are preceded by a thought inasmuch as a hug is with love. To destroy a divine creation for survival is physical necessity, but to do it without love and respect is abhorrent.

Life that sacrifices itself for continuation of your life needs to be respected, regardless of the shape, size and function of that life.

Ten years ago I attended a three-day Reiki training seminar. Of the many things I learned, one was to preform a simple Reiki technique on my food to imbue it with positive energy. At the time, I had no idea why one would need to. The reasoning, which I have largely forgotten was not explained in a manor that I could understood. But now I am beginning to understand that it was a form of respect toward that die for me to live.

Cores Concepts

Veganism is a lifestyle, way of life, and philosophy. Veganism is a social artifact created in response to a culture of consumerism that yields unsustainable ecological practices, poor dietary habits, and lack of conscientious thinking and behavior.

Diet: Veganism, when practiced properly, is likely healthier than the standard American diet. Other diets could be just as healthy, if not, more so. Diet and health are complex to understand containing a massive amount of variables. A diet that works for one does not mean it will work for another. It recommend trying a variety of diets to learn what your body response best to.

Biology: Veganism and vegetarianism as a diet are obviously possible. However, it is a biologically unnatural way of sustaining a human. In fact, extreme diets such as veganism and vegetarianism are extremely rare in the natural world. Nearly all higher-order species consume a mix of plant and animal matter with only a few exceptions.

A vegan and vegetarian lifestyles are diets, social constructs and philosophies created by humans. Misunderstood science is used as a tool to support an otherwise sound social movement and philosophy. This is similar to how Fundamental Christians twist science to give power to support their religious reality.

Humans are dietary adaptable organisms, not niched diet species like the panda or flamingo. We can sustain ourselves on a revolving diet depending on food availability, as has been the case over the last 350 million years with our ancestors.

Spirituality: I made a mistake in believing Vegetarianism leads to Spirituality. I have learned Veganism and Vegetarianism are not spiritual, but are lifestyles that can be practiced by those who are spiritual.

Inspected alone, Veganism fosters and promotes a biasness toward lifeforms which posses either emotions, intelligence and/or consciousness. These qualities, intrinsic but not limited to avians and mammals, are argued as a requirement for the experience of pain and suffering. This drawing of a line separating lifeforms based on mental faculties is a perception as false as separating humans based on skin color and IQ. Emotions and conciseness are manifestations of a physical nature in the same manor as feathers and chlorophyll are. One is not inherently superior to another. Despite this, I believe Vegans, proved by the adoption of the vegan diet, are conscientious people possessing well defined ethical values. However, Veganism and Vegetarianism cannot leads to spiritual awareness when it in itself is blind to life in other forms, naively promoting inequality by falsely believing one physical manifestation is more important than another. It is ironic that Vegans advocating animal rights reveal themselves as disrespectful and ambivalent to the other forms life takes. With a little juggling, Veganism can be auxiliary to a spiritual or religious belief system, but is not spiritual in and of itself. It is a social artifact created to solve a perceived social and cultural problem.

Environment: Currently, of all actions a single person can take to “save” the world (strictly environmental), eliminating meat intake would serve the greatest results. We we soon be facing a resource crunch. Eliminating meat consumption frees up resources.

Philosophy: A Vegan is one who practices a lifestyle that abstains from using animals for any purpose (even riding a horse?). A vegans goal is living cruelty-free. Thus a vegan strongly opposes factory farms and other processes which ignore animal rights.

Intention: Being a dietary vegan has instilled energy in my existence. I feel like I am thinking about something which matters.

Perspective: One can easily lose perspective as a Vegan. The primary goal for a Vegan is to sustain themselves without the use of animals. Abstaining from creature meat, dairy and animal products does a great deal towards supporting that purpose. Abstaining from products and food that contain or made from animal by-products is becoming detailed in fulfilling the goal. Determining whether or not sugar was whiten with bone char even though the sugar itself contains none becomes a questionable use of mental energy. For if one ceases meat consumption, then less bones will be available for secondary industries.

Thus focusing on reducing the primary industries output will have a cascading effect. A passionate and lifelong figure skater, in my opinion, lost focus on the overall goal of veganism when she became upset that the only good, high quality skates are made with leather. She loves to skate and her vegan lifestyle is already doing so much for the environment. Why is she worrying about a small detail? A pair of skates that will last five years. She should do her best as a Vegan while not giving up her love of skating. We all need to keep perspective.

The Vegan Morality of Life is Flawed

To be clear, I am a vegan and a vegan lifestyle has good intentions. The problems I have with it are the several logic, moral and philosophical flaws, one of which I will detail here. I cannot live under a flawed moral principle. Living a vegan lifestyle has been driving me crazy.

Veganism does not condone the killing or use of animals for gain or profit. However, the killing and profiting of plants is acceptable. This is a contradiction. Taking the life of another organism is killing. Believing it is acceptable to kill one type of organism but not another is hypocrisy.

Some vegans maintain that plants do not have the capacity for intelligence and consciousness, therefore cannot experience pain and suffering. While it is true plants do not have a neuron bundle, I argue that plants can experience pain and suffering. Pine trees secrete sap as a defense when beetles bore into the tree. This shows us that trees have a concept of self preservation, which is action to maintain life and are attempting, to the best of their ability to survive. Some plants have toxins as a defense against herbivore. All life has a desire to live. If an organisms life, whether plant or animals is being threaten, they will do it’s best to defend itself and survive. Some plants which have no adequate defenses, such as grasses, attempt to survive by propagating in shear numbers, much like squid, mayflies, etc…

For one organism to live another must die. There is no escaping this. Having a tiered value status of life, i.e. a mammal has a higher status than a plant, based on assigned arbitrary values is a false perception of reality. I believe in a reality of equality, not inequality, regardless of the form and capabilities of the organism. A bear does not have more value than a flower, for both their names, and bodies are not real. The only thing that is real is their life, of which they both have of equal value. With that said, it is the gift of life, not consciousness, which I acknowledge and respect.

Being a vegan helps me meditate on these concepts. Fruits, based on the above logic are an acceptable food item. Fruit, by their very nature are designed for consumption. Generally, the plant whom provided the fruit does not die when it’s fruits are eaten.

I find it perplexing that vegans, whom I have found consider themselves enlightened people, use intelligence, emotion and consciousness as a measuring stick to determine what is acceptable to kill. Those qualities are no more real and have no more value than a snail shell, plant hairs, or a flower. A mind and a tuber are equal. They are both expressions of life. Placing value on the mydrid expressions and characteristics life takes the form of is the same segregation mindset vegans are fighting against. Vegans believe that factory farming is modern day slavery. Well, believing that plants have lesser value than animals is a corrupted belief system. Throughout history, this mindset led to the extermination, subjugation, and persecution of many lifeforms because they were concerned of lesser value than another. On the contrary, all life is equal.

You think it is absurd that I am defending a vegetation genocide?! I think it is absurd you believe that humans, the only species capable of rational thought, are above all other species. Geckos are the only species that can climb flat, vertical surfaces with suction pads on their toes. Every species has something unique - a shell, suction pads, ink jets, thorns, chlorophyll, feathers, whiskers, intelligences, rationality. Because we can exert control over life means we must respect life, not make exceptions on what acceptable to steal life from. We either kill with respect or with disrespect. There is no lesser of two evils. Even killing less life, one is still taking life. This is why Veganism has good intentions, but is inherently flawed.

Because of this moral problem, I have been studying Native American belief systems in hopes of finding a resolution.




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